It seems like a dream...

We're having the winter vacation but we can't go anywhere due to my condition. I need bedrest most of the time and can't walk for too long. That's a very tiring task for Matthew as he has to bear with me at home practically doing "nothing". On top of that, DH has so many trips these 2 months... he's not at home all the time. He was in Russia 2 weeks ago and is now in Brazil and will be there for 2 weeks and will be back for a week before leaving for China again. But good news is there won't be much travel for the next few months. :)

Right now, I'm into my 8th week. I feel tired all the time. 10hrs of sleep is never enough for me and sometimes with the queasy feeling, it makes me worse. I haven't been feeling good and had some cramps... it always freak me out, especially when I see the spotting/bleedings. It was all well until 2 days ago, I was bleeding again... more this time and DH is away again...I was very discourage and upset, don't know whether is it going to happen again. I tried to keep my mind at peace and rest as much as possible. I know I have an appointment with the doctor today and waited patiently.

And guess what??? I saw it this morning!!! There's someone in there.... the doctor smile as she said it to me! She is very concerned too as I was bleeding abnormally but when she saw the flutter on the screen, she said it is good. I was very excited as she showed me the screen... I couldn't believe my eyes, there's a heartbeat and it's fluttering. This is the moment when I know it's HIM... Thanking and Praising God as He is the only one who can make this possible.

I can't thank all those who have been praying for us...I'm really excited to share God's blessing with you. I love you and May God's glory and blessing be with you too! I know it won't be easy for the next few months but I'm sure He will see me through! AMEN!

The Power of Prayers!

Do you believe in the power of prayers? Yes, I do and will always do! So many friends have been praying for us for my situation, even my Matthew has been praying for me and the baby to grow well. He's such a sweet and tendering child. I strongly believed that God's working on me! God is good. He hears us and He is doing miracle on me!!!

Remember the blood test that I'd mentioned? I did it and it was postive again... and of cos doubling... that's a good sign according to the doctor. What a joy that God's giving me in the midst of the struggle. But the scary thing is - I was still bleeding/spotting even till now. I woke up on Tuesday morning, noticing the increased amount and the cramp, it really freaked me out. Trying to stay calm and hope for the best, I carry on the day. The clinic called to inform me of the pleasing result and when I told them I am still bleeding, they said otherwise. The doctor ordered another blood work to be done on the following day. That night, I could hardly closed my eyes, I was so worried and cried and cried and thought that something bad is going to happen again.

the result came yesterday... Thank God, it was still good and doubling which is a very good sign. I will have my first appointment next Tuesday at the doctor's office. I'm hopeful and still praying for the best to happen this time round. It's really getting my nerves as the last 2 miscarriages were only diagnose after the 8th weeks. And now, I'm only in my 5-6th weeks. It's really too early to tell if everything will be alright but I'm praying and I believed that God will see us through this time round.

Will you join me and pray for us?? Do not underestimate the power of Prayers.... It's wonderful!

Is it going to be a false hope again??

A month ago, I have started the new hormone treatment instead of the hormone drugs that doesn't seem to work for me. The procedure is not as tedious as IVF but bad enough as the injection needs to be given everyday for 15days or more depending on my reaction to the drugs. I can't imagine it can be so hard to get another baby. The pain and traumatic experience that I have to go through... I really can't describe. But thank God for His Faithfulness and never ceasing Love and words that encourage me to keep trying.

I'm currently doing a Beth Moore's Bible-study on the "Living Beyong Yourself" that explore on the Fruit of the Spirit. It's helping me to renew my faith and strengthen my spiritual walk with God. It's really good. It reminds me of the difficulties I face and How I can entrust God in my situation.

My doctor ordered a blood work done yesterday to check if it was positive. I didn't really have much hope as I was bleeding...but the result came back and it was positive. I need to do another tomorrow to check if it's doubling (to see if the fetal is growing). I'm praying very hard for a positive result despite the fact that I'm still spotting. I really need God's miracle on me and I know only He can make it happen.... Please keep me in your prayers! Lord, touch me with your healing hands and give me your blessing with the miracle, Thank you, God! A-men.

Time for snow!

IT was freezing cold since we arrived at Clermont... it was -5°C and there's lots of snow... but this time round, we were ready for it unlike in the first year! However it was hard as the weather in S'pore was hot and humid 30 °C so it was still very cold for us.

Trying to get Matthew dressed in the morning is a big struggle as we always don't how should we dressed him... but better to be safe than sorry... here's our snow adventure!

Night view from Matthew's room


Day's view


Snow fight - Father and son


Aiming at the camera "man" - mummy


He almost got it!


nice one...


Trying to go up the slope with the luge


Going down on the luge


Mr. Yves Renault (DH's ex-boss in S'pore) giving them a push!

Brother's wedding

My brother's wedding on Boxing Day!
I was pretty busy helping mum to prepare brother's wedding, running errands and helping with the guests list...happy event despite the busy schedule!

Matthew getting ready for the event


Matthew with Dad and mum, grandma and great-grandma!


Waiting patiently for the dinner to start!


March-in


Signing the paper


Cake-cutting


Champagne-pouring


Our Family and Uncle's at dinner


Our Immediate Family


The Fours!



Congrats to my brother and sis-in-law on this big day... May God bless them with Love from this day on...